The results of the year and a little bit about my future.
It’s two in the morning and I just finished editing a new YouTube video. An idea popped into my head and boom two hours of recording, two hours of editing and three hours of coloring footage just dissapeared. I happily finished, went to take a smoke break and suddenly I was surprised and asked myself…
- Why am I doing this?
- What do I want to achieve with this video?
- Why do I need to express my opinion on every noise.
- Is this how I see my life, is this how I see my future?
I don’t know the right answers yet, maybe I’ll never know, but right now I don’t see myself as a youtuber in the future. I’m still holding out hope to leave something more meaningful than a bunch of videos on YouTube.
This has been a very busy year for me:
- I moved to another country, ahoj 🇨🇿
- Started working at Microsoft.
- Expanded my geography 🇨🇿🇹🇷🇧🇪🇸🇪🇩🇪🇵🇱 even stuck in hotel room with COVID for 2 weeks, but this is probably the totally different story
- A lot of what I think is good content came out with my participation
- Went to a Kendrick Lamar, MGK concerts and met my DOTA idols
- Finally got to meet my virtual friends Artyom and Timur in person
- Made new friends here in Prague
- Started to push hard into the gym, read more and blah blah
- Learned how to play Mia & Sebastian theme
- And a lot of other things.
So yeah, in retrospective on paper not so bad tho.
“I know very little about anything, but what I do know is that if you can live your life without an audience, you should do it." – Bo Burnham
But don’t worry, I’m already broken and can’t do it without an audience - so you can find me here. From time to time I will share something with you and feed my ego monster. But hopefully much less often than now.
Have a happy new year! Hugs to you, Vlad Ten